**The following post is the final blog from my son Raven and my trip to see John of God in January 2012 for five weeks. For the complete collection of blogs you can go here.
Our trip home went smoothly. Raven ensured that we had a wheelchair from the moment we entered the first airport by having a seizure and ending up on the floor. We spent six hours in the Sau Paulo airport waiting for our connection so we know the airport quite well now, which may serve us for future trips. We arrived home around 3:30 Sunday afternoon after many hours of being enroute, much relieved to be back in our familiar space with our awaiting kitties.
I’m finding it very strange to be writing here in our blog, wrapped up in blankets and sweaters with the heat blasting through the furnace to warm up our chilly house this morning. It is such a contrast to how I’ve written for the past five weeks from Abadiania.
Reentry has been a challenge for me. We were both ready to come home so I wasn’t really expecting so much unraveling on such a deep emotional level. Looking back for me, it actually started about a week before we left when Glenn arrived the day outside the bookstore and I realized that I didn’t have to be strong by myself anymore.
I have spent my entire life feeling like I have to be strong for myself and for everyone around me without knowing I was doing it really. Certain events have added substaintially to the perception, though it has always been there. The sense of being strong in this way is a bit like the image of Atlas holding up the entire world with both hands.
I now really understand in a new and deeper way that I no longer have to do anything like this again. I have so much help and support in so many ways from friends, family, neighbors, and from so many other places all eminating and flowing from God/Divine.
In the illusion of being separate and individual, it was so easy to think it was me against the world. Now I know it is me with everyone and everything. The relief for me seems to be a regular out flowing of tears from a very deep place within.
Raven is doing great with a much deeper sense of peace and calm. He says that he feels much better because he now has a spiritual connection that has changed everything inside for him.
I’m coming to deeply understand that healing has occurred for both of us at very deep places within our souls. It is perfect and profound exactly the way it has happened right now. It doesn’t necessarily mean that the seizures are completely gone or maybe that they will ever be gone. I don’t know.
What it does mean is that we both have experienced exactly what we needed and that we move forward from here with all the healing and gifts we have received and continue to receive everyday.
It is a new awareness that we are always held and supported by Divine in every moment of our daily lives forever.
Thank you to each one of you who have been with us throughout this journey. It is your journey too no matter when you find these words to read. It is the journey of each and everyone of us and all of us together. To reestablish and find our connection with ourselves, with others and with God.
May you each find the peace and love that is here for you now.
With much love, light, peace and gratitude,
Cindy and Raven
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